I’m okay with my body when I’m at home. But the minute I see my super skinny friend, I start feeling “fat” and my thighs feel fucking monstrous. I hate how I let myself feel ugly and fat. I wish I could stop.
How long did it take you to go from 136 to 117? Great job btw!!
That was long ago, actually. I was 136lbs about 2 years ago. I’ve been at 120lbs for the past 1 year. Back then, I did Sparkpeople’s cardio workouts without a break and ate clean. I also used to do cardio for 1.5 hours, never took rest days and then fell sick :| So I stopped. Just continued to eat clean. This is my 2nd legit attempt at trying to lose weight the right way (: This time, I’m not doing crazy cardio. I’m doing core+strength+cardio with rest days. I hope I am doing it right. Following Jillian Michael’s 30 day shred.
I hate these people around me. First they used to make digs at me because of the amount of junk food that I ate. Now that I’m being healthy and working out, they say I’m becoming a stick and that I’m ugly. GO FUCK YOURSELF. I can’t live for you. I can’t take this shit anymore. I fucking hate these people.